NO F#*@ING CLUE TODAY ABOUT WHICH WAY TO FLOAT?

    Today I don’t seem to have a clue about, and have found myself very anxious about how to navigate all of the currents and obstacles happening on the River of Life such as:

Family, Friends, Work, Survival, Politics, Changes, Life, Death……whatever!!!!!

But for now I’ve come to the conclusion that:

This is O.K.  

I know that I have to take it one hour, one River curve at a time versus trying to figure it out all at once. In other words I am going to Float Sideways.

Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.

Otherwise I will be overwhelmed, and more things will seem screwed up even if they aren’t that bad, and seem unnecessarily challenging to make sense of without getting sucked down into the seeming sink hole of negativity.

One thing I have noticed that helps for that hour I am Floating is to take a break from the now constant access to news and social media. When I’ve done this, my outlook, whether or not I want to admit it, starts to get just a tiny bit brighter.

So I turn it ALL off, even though sometimes I just want to sit and swirl in all the crap, the dirty water so to speak, feeling kinship with those who are currently feeling the way I do, since feeling something some days is better than feeling nothing. But swirling in the dirty water eventually turns into even worse feelings and that ultimately isn’t good for anyone within my reach, especially me.

Maybe the battle between good and evil I sometimes feel is because, even when we are feeling ‘evil’ or negative towards someone, human beings truly want to feel goodness towards each other, and about where they and the world are headed. When I feel shit feelings instead, it puts me at odds with myself. Maybe that is what has kept us humans going for the amount of years we have been on this planet, that constant interplay between fight, flight, and kindness. We haven’t wiped out each other yet, because kindness has always won over pushing nuclear buttons. (Yes, I know there are some other reasons as well, but for today let’s focus on kindness.)

So here’s what I’ve figured out that works when I feel the shit and swirling dirty water wanting to suck me in:

Just go say or do something positive for someone else. (You know, that ‘be kind’ mantra you see that sometimes you want to just barf on because it seems so far from the way you feel sometimes?) It doesn’t have to be something big at all, just something.

For some weird ass reason, this helps that light shine for just a little while and just for today, for me, that is a good plan.

Once you do that nice something, hold on to that good feeling inside as long as possible so you can fill up your own bucket with a bit of sunshine. Should you wake up with angst again tomorrow, you will know what to do with it sooner.

Who’s done what the picture shows?

(Admit it)